Difficulty

by Dan Gasser on Thursday, August 5, 2010 at 8:49pm

 

It's hard to write
something that's not real
It's difficult to know
The pressure I feel

I want to write
Whats comes to mind
I want to expose
The steel ropes that bind

My wrists are bound
Tight and secure
They cant reach high
Or write what is pure

To say what I want
To feel what I feel
Is it worth the cost
Of a soul to heal?

Although I must say
It's not me that will pain
Those that I write of
Are poetically exposed by my brain

I want to say
Things beyond comprehension
Explaining my heart is true
Without causing dissention

So do I write in public
For all to see?
They dont know
This person I need

The confusion I bring
To the table is suspect
My inquiries are poorly timed
The answers I get, I expect

It's not unusual
For me to fail
I scare them away
With wind in their sail

But I do hope
That someday I'll find
One that can see
Openness in my mind.

The woman I dream of
I will strongly decree
That as strange as I am
She's proud to be with me.

But unitl that happens
Do I wait quietly in the shadows
Do I wait for the wall of words
To flood the narrows?

It comes without warning
Flowing fast and flowing strong
Pushing my will to the brink
Knowing my pen has plenty of ink.

I can write for hours
About pain branding my heart
For days on end I'll type
Never knowing where to start

So until I figure out
What this is all about
Take pity on this man
He does the best he can.