Avoiding The Pain

I live my life day by day
Trying to make the rent to pay
Allowing for some fun to pass the time
Hoping for a life that I want to be mine

But there are things I try to avoid
Things that really get me annoyed
I've tried to get away I swear I tried
This time I think I'm on the right side

I'll stay away from all the pain
I'll stop accepting all the blame
I'll learn to stand on my own two feet
I'll begin to understand how to avoid repeats

I don't want to be abused by spiteful words
I don't want to be ripped apart by verbal buzzards
Let me find a woman that really loves me
Let me love again without the ridiculing

I've tried to earn my way in life
I can't seem to keep from losing my fights
I've fought with what I thought was heart
But it's always seems to be my fault

I'm not rich, I'm sorry I cant buy a boat
I'm sorry I dont have enough to gloat
But yet I've survived by tightening my belt
With scornful looks cast my way as if I smelled

Let me stop the chain of continuous damnation
Relieve myself of the constant manipulation
Cast off this weight I have carried for years
Be free of greed and those fake painted tears

I will avoid the promises that I can't keep
I will avoid the hurt that cuts so deep
I will avoid those that think I'm absurd
I will walk the other way and flip them the bird.

I'm not a genius, I cant invent the wheel
I'm not a doctor that knows how to heal
I'm not a model with looks that stun
I'm not a man that carries a gun

I'll try to be smart and say the right things
I'll heal your soul with words that dont sting
I'll look the best I can given what I have got
I'll protect you with love until my heart stops