Anticipation

We all know what its like anticipating
To feel anxious without the usual abating
Feeling excitement wanting the waiting to end
Getting nervous when events are around the bend

This is what I felt like when I waited for her
Knowing that someday I would  know her so much more
I had expressed my eagerness to finally see her face
I had told her that I would take her to a special place

I had dreams of what it would be like
To take her on a long leisurely hike
With her hand in mine we would walk the trail
Trading stories about the times when we have needed bail
Separate but together we would make this trek
Discovering each other with each purposeful step

These dreams always ended in sensual bliss
Clothes strewn about and caution dismissed
Then I woke up and my anxiousness had grown
I wanted something that I had never known

But you see the past is the past and we all grow up
I realize these truths and I quietly sup
I remember and hope that I haven't run out of time
I can always pretend that she was once mine.

I still sometimes hope that the time may come
But I hear the beating of a fading drum
Telling me that I will need to take it slow
There are two lives at stake with plenty to blow

There's no need to rush into something that may be opaque
I will proceed with caution because I don't want hearts to break
So, with anticipation, I await whatever happens to be my fate
No promises, or dishonesty should be the cause of heartache