From Pity to Party

As I listen to the world go by
I sit and wonder where am I
I've done the things I'm supposed to do
Yet I still have something to prove

I don't know why things happened this way
I thought I wasn't going to end up the prey
But here I am broken and chewed
Trying to put together a life that's bruised

I'm not a pessimist by nature
I know love will happen
They say be patient
Don't look for that option

I'm not necessarily looking for love
I think I know what I am speaking of
Love will happen when she opens her eyes
Her being that woman I have yet to hypnotize

Maybe I've met her and maybe I haven't
But I can't wait around for what could've happened.
So my life changes each night as I dream
The dreams power my being and change what I need

So ...today I need nothing, today I need peace
Today I need to let go I need to release
Empty my thoughts and let the mind wander
It'll venture where it will and find new things to ponder

As I search for the wisdom I have yet to find
I will look forward and not behind
I will make plans to find these answers
With friends alongside I'll maneuver these waters

Tonight I'll grow a little wiser
Uninhibited actions will be my advisor
Don't be amazed at the things I might do
I've learned from the best, my Golden Hills crew.

Try to reason with me and try to sedate me
Try to control me and try to restrain me
But you will see there's no turning back
Once I gather the momentum from throwing a few back.