Questions and Answers

Again I write to ease your pain
Because it will not be in vain
I write because I can see
The sorrow behind your beauty

I don't know your past that chills
I dont know what gives you thrills
I can see right through your eyes
Into your soul knowing seduction is mine

I have the patience and I have the power
I have the talent to listen for hours
Listening to questions that have no answers
Providing solutions to long awaited prayers

I don't ask for any special consideration
Just a fair chance to give a demonstration
Your mind will swim with visions of me
Surrounding your thoughts awake in a dream

Let me take you to a world we can know
A world of adventure, creating stories to be told
A whirlwind of amazement is yours to be taken
I'll spin your dreams faster when you awake

Be honest with yourself, it's hard to resist
The tempation to go with what your heart insists
But listen closer to what the brain will say
When you ask it why you feel this way

The answer is obvious to the question you ask
It's easy to see why you fell so fast
I am here to say that I caught you once
Ill catch you again with a daring response

I'll make you understand the reason for me
The reason for you and the reason for we
They say patience is a virtue and ignorance is bliss
If you think your happy now just wait for my kiss.

O'Briens XIII

It's been a while and now it's time
For me to share a little rhyme
About O'Brien's and the night to come
About a night filled with song and fun

That's kind of corny so let's do this right
Come down to O'Brien's this Thursday night
Buy me a beer and watch me go
With Joe and Fred and running the show

I won't dissappoint Ill be there
Maybe even dancin on chairs
Even if I don't break out with day-o
There'll be beautiful women on the bongos 

There will be fun beyond what you've known
Sitting bored and complacent in your home
Bring your amp, guitar and  your voice
Make Thursday nights everyone's choice

Happy Birthday Melissa!

Happy Birthday Melissa you've come so far
We are all proud of you despite our scars
I hope you can celebrate sometime soon
Let us join you in trying to jump the moon

You handled your self well up until this point
Mother, friend, daughter and sometimes shrink
You are wise, thoughtful, and quick with your tongue
Making others think twice about where they come from

Superstupendosity is a word I've heard used
When speaking of your character to which honor is glued.
Whether you are kickboxing, cooking, or caring for loved ones
24hrs a day of dedication deserves respect even from nuns

Fantabulous, hypercredible,superiffic, and more

Words to describe a woman that floats across the floor

Gracefulmatic, imagilistic, beautamazing I hear quite often

When people think of someone so completely awesome.

I hope your day was a joyous one indeed

On this day, please, succumb to any greed
For this day is yours and it's yours alone
To be selfish for once giving no one else the bone.

Knotted

What is wrong with how I deal?
Why do I avoid what's real?
Why does my stomach get tied in knots?
Why doesn't my brain tell me it's thoughts?

I claim to be a passionate man
I write my poems the best I can
To express feelings I ought to have
De-pressurizing a brain that's overtaxed

I need help because I know I care
I need to learn how my heart to bare
I say what I want to feel deep inside
I try to awaken emotional pride

I'm not confused because I know what's right
I don't feel as strong as I thought I might
Maybe this is as open as I can get
Maybe time will cure my heart that frets.

Maybe I'm wrong about all I think
Maybe this is true love on the brink
A wall has been erected to shut out the past
Which included pain and neglect woefully amassed

I've been told that my heart is cold
Compassionless as if my soul was sold
But can this be true if my stomach braces
Whenever I anticipate seeing her face?

The beauty of one that powers my soul
Is going to help me reach my goal
She will help me to open my heart
She will show me how to let down my guard.

If she has the patience to wait
I believe the rewards will be great
I'll try my best to release my thoughts
With honest compassion for which I fought.

Thinking In Silence

Alone in this room I sit quietly and I type
Fours walls and a door and something isnt right
Complete silence surrounds me and my ears ring
A high pitched buzzing noise, I'm waiting for the sting.

The buzzing turns to humming as I listen to the sounds
A dull throbbing rhythm of silence is all around
Like tuning a guitar you can tell when its good
The vibrations slow, coinciding as they should

Tell me what this silent pulsating is
Monotonous assault on my senses
Making me listen even harder
Thinking maybe I am a martyr

Sacrificing myself for the good of the insolent many
I've questioned the reasons but really dont want any
Why must I suffer when so many others prosper?
Was I too hard on someone? I should have been softer.

The pounding in my head keeps questions coming
No answers are given but my thoughts are stunning
I realize that I dont need to find the answers
The answers dont exist, I cant cure my cancer

Hypochondriasis of the soul is my illness you see
Always trying to find what will make me happy
But I'm happy already and I can tell you why
I've found a woman that wants to be by my side.

A Dream Of A Child part 2

In the center of a maze is where I stood
Not knowing how this could ever end good
Stuck all alone with nowhere to go
Alone except for the voice that screams incessantly so

I'm not sure what it was supposed to mean
A cause or a cure I needed for this dream
I didnt want to run from the voice anymore
I wanted to find the source, find the core.

The dream always ended the same exact way
Me running from my voice trying to live another day
I dont know how and I dont know why
But for years on end this dream haunted my mind

I can still hear that voice screaming quietly
I can still feel the fear that kept me running
I get anxious when I think about the dream
My heart racing to end a nightmare of fleeing

Thsi dream occurred for years on end
Each night the same but slightly different
Always starting the same crouched in the corner
Ending differently like my life without borders

Sometimes I just gave up and cried
In the middle of my mind,knotted and tied
Sometimes I ran until I reached the end
Never quite reaching, always around the bend

If Life Was Perfect

How would my life have changed
If it was perfect and not deranged
It's hard to say how it would be
But I would be free of all misery?

I can only describe the past as it was
It was something I've always dreamed of
My life wasn't perfect when she came unto me
But she made it better than it's been lately

I'll talk about now or the present if you will
And how she continues to bring me thrills
I like to take it one day at a time
Having fun til we've spent the last dime.

I'll predict the future which is too easy
You can always describe the perfect dream
If it hasn't happened yet then anything is possible
Making dreams come true certainly is plausible.

It began a while back when I was sulking in sorrow
Looking for a reason to not wake up tomorrow
I went through the motions day after day
I earned my keep for which I had little to pray

I wanted attention to show me I'm needed
I wanted a woman to tell me she's heated
Then I saw her staring into my eyes
I have to admit it was quite a surprise.

Since that night we have tried to overcome
The obstacles that try to make us succumb
To the weight they bear and height that towers
Some things cannot be solved if we continue to cower

But we have worked around the eventual pain
Coming together in the sun and the rain
Making the best of what we have been given
To enjoy one another to the fullest we are driven

The future can only be told with absolute pleasure
Because perfection is not something you can measure
Complete and utter happiness is what we will achieve
Misery and pain will be avoided in this dream

We will stand true through the waves of trouble
We will comfort each other when the pain seems double
We will begin to understand, grow, and flower
Believing in my perfect dream's power

We will live together as one, no troubles or worries
Traveling the world and battling arctic flurries
Learning new things and achieving our dreams
Prosperity will follow us as we continue to succeed

If a perfect world this would be true
What could happen if I was with you
But until it happens and we claim our thrones
True happiness will be eluded and prosperity postponed.

Luckily for me this not what I need
I do not need live life perfectly
I only need a woman that will love me with honor
To whom I will be available without emotional armor.

I have shed my chains and tossed away the shield
I have opened my eyes and seen the open field
I found in the field a budding treasure
Saying "here I am, I'm yours" ..you are my pleasure

A Dream Of A Child Part I

Listening in the dark of night
The sounds I hear are my sight
The rain falling lightly on the roof
The wind blowing with something to prove

The rain picks up and takes me away
To a world of dreams forgotten the next day
That's why I keep a journal of dreams
To catalogue my insanity to discover what it means

This journal I keep I have had for years
Since a child of seven with all of my fears
Written down,my mind in a hopeless fog
Groggy, waking amid troubled thoughts

One dream in particular stands out to me
It made me think often although thinking blindly
It always began with me in a room
No lights, no sounds, no hope I assumed

I was always looking from above down upon myself
I was crouched in the corner with blackness about
Although it was dark I could always see
The edges of the room stretched to infinity

Like looking into a box with only three sides
Seeing the emptiness with never-ending lines
The silence was broken with a booming whispered voice
"What were you thinking when you made that choice?"

Screaming in my head I could hear it clear
Softly deafening me I felt only fear
I tried to get away from the voice in my head
Running, trying to find the door, I sped

The walls began closing getting narrow very slowly
My dream's eye view encompassing it wholly
The dream's screen enlarged to show a picture
Of a maze, a labyrinth, with me in the center.

Happy Anniversary

It's been one year since I left my life
One year since I've had no wife
One year since I've had the thrill
Of cooking on my back porch grill

One year to accept my loss
One year of not having a boss
One year to believe that I'll be fine
Living all alone for the first time

One year to meet new friends
One's that I know upon which I can depend
One year to be socially present
After years of social irrelevance

I certainly have made of most of this year
Have great experiences that I will always hold dear
Living life like I've never lived before
Learning who I am and learning what's in store

I'm looking forward to the coming year ahead
It will be full of love and void of dread
I'll hold close those that wish to stay
My eyes will tear if they go away.

But whatever happens I'll continue to be me
Because, after all, who else should I be?
I ask you all to join this celebration
Of peace, love, and joyous jubilation.

O'Brien's XII

Your mind may be clouded
With decisions you have doubted
But you cannot be mistaken if you feel alright
About going to O'Briens this Thursday Night

Pretty soon it will be standing room only
Because the crowd growing is not lonely
They bring new friends every week
This crowd we have is no meek

I promise it will be a night you wont forget
You will be talking about it for weeks on end
You can sing a song or just play along
Whatever you decide will not be wrong

There are people that count on you
To make their night a dream come true
Show our friends the support they need
Come on down, we have fun to feed.

Stymie

He stands tall and proud just north of Boston
An old and wise wild blue heron
Guarding the bridge just behind O'Brien's
Making sure none trespass not even those with fins

I saw a vagrant man try to cross his path
He didn't get far before he felt the wrath
Mighty Stymie as we will call him now
Pecked at his eyes until the man went down

With the man face down in the water by the rocks
Mighty Stymie scoffed at us watching from the docks
Stymie spread his wings and flapped, showing off his guns
Seven feet wide sometimes blocking out the sun

Stymie squawked at us with fire in his eyes
Saying, "I will peck you as well if you challenge my pride"
Learning quick from the man that alas no longer has vision
We will stay put, safely far away from a dagger beak collision

Here is your poem of the keeper of the bridge
Not scared of anyone not even a smidge
Stymie was inspired by a friend from home
While watching him stand in the Saugus River foam.

Boots Are Made For Jumping

Butterflies in my stomach when I see her face
My mouth goes dry when she is in my space
My heart thumps loudly inside my chest
Beating to burst out screaming with zest

I anticipate seeing her more each day
I yearn to feel her touch when she is away
I plead with myself to hold together
Wanting to say let's be together forever.

I hope she stays within my reach
So we can take walks on the beach
Holding her hand and kissing her lips
Chills down my spine with my hand on her hips

Its hard to explain how wonderful she feels
It's easy for me to know this is real
Ill teach her that I could be the man
To make her happier that she can possibly stand.

I'll give her butterflies when she knows Im near
I will quench her thirst with joyous tears
I will make her quake, shaking in her boots
Jumping into my arms, she is no longer a pursuit.

A Dime To Call

My feelings are there for me to express
You heart is what I want to possess
To hold you close and say I care
To touch your soul and to show I'm there

I've been through hell but you soften my heart
You allow me to let down my guard
I'll let you in because I know your true
I'll begin to love and let you through

I'll wait for you and when you're ready you'll know
That I'm ready to give you my heart to stow
Do with it what you will, I dont care
It's yours to love to break and to bare.

What else can I do but stay by and wait
Waiting for the moment to take hold of fate
To make it mine will take some time
But I'll wait for you, here's a dime.

Spinning Yarns

I question the thoughts in my head
I question the ache in my heart
I question the reasons I'm here right now
I question reality of feelings that spawn

Answers are there if I look close enough
Questions will be answered despite how tough
How much longer will I be able to deal
With holding back feelings that may be real

But I have to protect those that care
I have to let them know that I'm willing to share
I have lots to offer if you can count my heart
It's ok if it breaks when my world falls apart

I'll pick myself up and begin my life anew
Putting my life back together with needed soul glue
It adheres quickly and heals my pain
If if doesnt kill me then I have gained

But I fear that my life is not the cure
For others that suffer with pain more pure
I can't work miracles I can only be myself
I can only offer me, but it may not be enough

I'm still learning what life is about
I still am curious what it is I doubt
I'll be happy once this poem is done
My tale is told, my yarn is spun.

Avoiding The Pain

I live my life day by day
Trying to make the rent to pay
Allowing for some fun to pass the time
Hoping for a life that I want to be mine

But there are things I try to avoid
Things that really get me annoyed
I've tried to get away I swear I tried
This time I think I'm on the right side

I'll stay away from all the pain
I'll stop accepting all the blame
I'll learn to stand on my own two feet
I'll begin to understand how to avoid repeats

I don't want to be abused by spiteful words
I don't want to be ripped apart by verbal buzzards
Let me find a woman that really loves me
Let me love again without the ridiculing

I've tried to earn my way in life
I can't seem to keep from losing my fights
I've fought with what I thought was heart
But it's always seems to be my fault

I'm not rich, I'm sorry I cant buy a boat
I'm sorry I dont have enough to gloat
But yet I've survived by tightening my belt
With scornful looks cast my way as if I smelled

Let me stop the chain of continuous damnation
Relieve myself of the constant manipulation
Cast off this weight I have carried for years
Be free of greed and those fake painted tears

I will avoid the promises that I can't keep
I will avoid the hurt that cuts so deep
I will avoid those that think I'm absurd
I will walk the other way and flip them the bird.

I'm not a genius, I cant invent the wheel
I'm not a doctor that knows how to heal
I'm not a model with looks that stun
I'm not a man that carries a gun

I'll try to be smart and say the right things
I'll heal your soul with words that dont sting
I'll look the best I can given what I have got
I'll protect you with love until my heart stops

As I sit

As I sit I think about her face
As I sit I dream of her touch
As I sit I get lost in her eyes
As I sit I find her in my mind

It is easy to see the absolute beauty
Turning heads but always looking at me
She knows I'm here waiting for her smile
She knows that I will be here for a while

When she speaks I can only hear her voice
When she walks the earth rotates under her feet
When she sleeps I watch her calmly breathing in deep
When she awakens I hope that I am her choice

Like the earth's shadow that covers the moon

My soul has been clouded with a sinning typhoon

To be released from this painful wrath

I need an angel to show me the path

This will happen when I open my eyes
She will be standing there to my surprise
A woman of my dreams to kiss my lips
A genuine angel to end my eclipse

For Our Veterans

You've made it through the worst of times
Battling for your life and battling for mine
You have given your soul to your homeland
We all thank you and behind you we stand

Through all the wars at home and abroad
We honor you and our country for whom you've fought
Stand tall, chin up, shoulders back and be proud
Listen and you will hear America cheering loud

Thank you again for all you've done
For all the wars that you have been part of
We are glad you're here to celebrate with us
Because without you our country has no promise

O'Brien's XI

Red are red
Violets are blue
Come down to O'Briens
Or Ill open up a can of whoop-ass on you

Kiss On The Lips

She is an inspiration to all
She has me completely enthralled
Kind hearted and sweet
A woman you want to meet

Despite her own pain
She perseveres and sustains
Helping others day after day
I'm not surprised I feel this way

Maybe one day I'll get the nerve
To tell her without turning a curve
But I can't bear to be rejected
By a woman that's so respected

Do I extend my hand hoping she accepts?
Do I write her a poem about the times I wept?
Do I court her until she falls in love?
Do I retreat because it's what I'm afraid of?

All I ask is for a kiss on the lips
My kiss will bring together our hips
To embrace and hold to walk the street
Hand in hand, my heart skipping a beat.

Winter Dreams

As the winter draws closer the collars go up
Protection from the biting winds that never seem to stop
The secret of warmth is to think of how I make you feel
When my arms are around you it feels so surreal

As we hold each other close we dream of what may be
We consider the complexity of all the possibilities
I hope for the future to bring what we wish
Waiting til the time is right to make our troubles vanish

As we wait for the unknown we will feel the strength
Of feelings that grow despite being at arm's length
Not able to be what and who we are
Unable to heal the deeply embedded scars

Walking on the beach with your hand in mine
I sometimes wish we could go back in time
To a place that we both knew so long ago
To change the course of the life we now know.

But the present is here and we can only dream
That we can overcome the obstacles that be
Virtual passion and heat will keep us warm
Waiting for the winter to bring another storm.

Happy Birthday Merrijane!

Happy Birthday Merrijane here is a poem for you
I told you I would and that's what I'm going to do
So just sit back and listen to what I have to say
Only once a year can we celebrate your birthday

A dear friend from a long time ago
A beautiful spirit that everyone should know
A tongue that's sharp and wit that's quick
A little ball of fire that don't take no shit

You have been through hell and you have come out strong
I never had any doubt that you're one to count on
True to your friends with a family that's adoring
Robin is lucky to have a mother that's so supporting

You deserve more praise than the setting sun
People could make offers but I wouldn't trade you for anyone
So please have a drink for me on this blessed day of ours
You've gotten one year better, you are one of my stars.

Mesmerized

Quietly and calmly the days and months go by
Waiting for the special person to catch my eye
When she does then I hope I am able
To tether this angel with a love-strung cable

She moves in a way that drives me insane
Her beauty is breathtaking and chokes my pain
Her eyes are toxic, poisoning me with lust
Her mouth is exotic, begging me to touch

I can feel the passion deep in my soul
I wonder how many hearts she stole
How many men has she hypnotized,
Enthralled, Ensnared and mesmerized

O'Brien's X

Rock and Roll, passion and power
With Fred standing high upon the tower
Riffing like none you have even seen
Scorching talent making others look obscene

Open Mic is this Thursday night
OBriens pub is in our sights
Looking forward to seeing old friends
Meeting new ones we will have til the end

This week will be epic, this I know
Because as I've said, I will make it so
There will be people crashing down the door
Just to see what there is in store

So I'll see you all when the time has come
Drink in hand and full of ironic wisdom
I'll convince you to let yourself go
You'll will be enslaved down to the marrow.

Happy Birthday Karen

Happy Birthday Karen whoever you are
You have not been able to meet me thus far
I'm not sure how I should feel
Maybe Lisa's friend isn't even real

Regardless if you are real or not
I wish for you only good things, which I haven't got
I wish you lots of presents and hugs from your kids
May your contacts not get stuck to your eyelids.

I'm sure you will have many more years
To make up for you causing me so many tears
For I have yet to experience the Karen people know
They say when she goes out she really really goes

You asked for a poem for your day of birth
I hope that this is enough for what it's worth
I hope to meet you before 2013
By then my rep may be damaged and not so pristine.